better than usual.

yesterday was alright.. better than most of my birthdays so far. we didn't make it to rick's cabaret YET because douglas said he stopped by there after work but they weren't letting him in because he had a jersey on and the wrong shoes i think. i'm not sure they would've approved of my wardobe either.. i wasn't dressed badly or anything but douglas said they said he couldn't go in because he had shorts on too. i was wearing a skirt (which i DO see other women going to clubs wearing.. so i'm not really sure) but if they were picky about his shorts- i'm not sure if this would be a double standard. douglas reassured me that i was dressed fine though and we just went to the casino. i don't really enjoy gambling especially when i'm losing and i didn't make much money (if any), i wasn't about to continue feeding a losing machine- i know people are probably like, "just switch machines!" well- i did and they still weren't winners.. so i wasn't gonna continue forking over money. plus- douglas said we could go to rick's another day (possibly this weekend?)- so i saved some money for there. i was just happy to get outta the house for my birthday FOR ONCE. no thanks to the supposed reason why i haven't gotten to move and ACTUALLY live MY life. jealous losers. my SUPPOSED "caring" family.